![]() “I trust you,” he assured me, while making room for me to sit in front of him. He eventually asked if I wanted to drive it for a while. I suddenly felt like I could feel every ounce of fat on my body-the rolls over my stomach, my thighs jiggling against my will as the jet ski shook us. Thoughts of how insecure I suddenly felt, clad in only my bathing suit and a life jacket, swirled around me the same way the water did beneath the jet ski. If he said those comments about this woman’s body, what was stopping him from making them about mine? What was stopping anyone from making them about mine? None of this logic I tried to focus on stopped my mind from racing. He didn’t mean that comment to hurt or belittle me at all. This comment wasn’t made at me, I thought. ![]() I began to cycle through the thoughts of trying to be rational with a mental illness that thrived of irrationality. He made these comments careless of his girlfriend with an eating disorder behind him. She was minding her own business, completely unaware that my boyfriend, a stranger to her, was making fun of her for her weight. My smile slid off my face as my eyes followed his direction to a woman, clearly overweight, lying and enjoying her day in the sun on her property’s dock. “Look,” he said over the rumbling motor, motioning to his left with his head. As Nathan accelerated, he looked over his shoulder to me, laughing. We sped by families with young children, men drinking beers on their docks, young people fishing, anyone who thought the day was too nice to be spent inside. We rode around the lake whizzing by with the loud motor announcing our presence to anyone who was outside. The submersion of myself in their world of excessively nice things made me feel out of place in the beginning of our relationship, but at this point, the overwhelming privilege of their lifestyles was no longer so shocking. I spent a lot of time there with him and his family in the summer before our first year of college, living up what felt like our last summer of youth together before college would bring about the change of increased workloads, stress, and summers busy with internships. His father was the city’s most frequented orthodontist, leaving his family with enough disposable income to have the second home, as well as the many luxuries that went along with property on a lake: the boat, paddle boards, canoes, and two intimidatingly powerful jet skis. Our families had been neighbors and close friends since he and I were in preschool, so we were often invited to spend our day on the shore of Lake Otis. I had been coming up to Nathan’s family’s lake house for years before he asked me to be his girlfriend half way through our final year of high school. Soon the wind whipping in our faces almost made me forget that it was a sweltering hot day in the dead of summer. He laughed a little, kissed me on the cheek, and told me to hang on to him tight. “Yeah.” I tried to hide the fact that I was now replaying that unpleasant moment in my mind with a sturdy voice. I laughed uncomfortably, remembering the embarrassment of being the person who made the jet ski too heavy to go. “Oh yeah! We tried to fit three people on this when we came up here with all of our friends, but it had too much weight on it, so you had to wait for the next turn.” “I think I rode this one with you, but it was a long time ago, before we were dating.” “Have you ever ridden one of these before?” he asked me. I shifted so that I sat more balanced in the center, wrapping my arms around him from behind. It wobbled as my weight entirely resided on one side of the small aquatic vehicle before throwing my leg over it like I had just watched him do. There is no practical component or need to undock.I stepped carefully onto Nathan’s jet ski. Access to the EVE Uni Discord ClassroomsĪdditional information: This class is primarily a lecture and discussion delivered in public Mumble, with the slides streamed over the EVE University Discord and questions taken in the class questions Discord channel.Use this guide for set-up: EVE Uni Mumble Mumble registration and access - make sure you have Mumble sorted out and operational well before the class begins.This CORE class covers the following topics: Where: E-Uni Mumble for voice, E-Uni Discord (Classroom Alpha) for the presentation slides and class questions Scheduled Classes: 14 March, 0100 EVE Time Most items in EVE are Player made - this class will teach the fundamentals of how to join in the effort of providing New Eden with the ships, guns, modules, rigs, ammo, and more! This CORE class aims to introduce new players to Industry in EVE Online.
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